The stress level around here started to rise around the beginning of December. I had previously spent too much money upgrading my computer from an AMD Duron 850 Mhz with 256 MB RAM to an AMD Duron 2.0 with 512 MB RAM plus installation. All this right before I had to pay the hospital bill to have Ladybug's cast removed.
Those 2 things the last 2 weeks of November really killed the early x-mas shopping. Then I found out due to a mail mix up the Prosecuting Attorney from my home state was pressing charges against me, so I had to hire an attorney to fix it for me so I wouldn’t have to fly back to the states to handle it. Without the help of my Aunt I surely would have had no Birthday celebrations or Christmas presents.
Just 2 days ago my immigration attorney called and said he needed the Landing Fee ASAFP which I paid this morning. I still owe the Stateside Attorney and My Aunt for January.
We had planned on moving into our new house January 21st but that requires the first months rent, truck rental fees, and utility deposits. With the bills I already owe for my current state of indebtedness it just isn’t all possible so the moving day gets pushed to the last possible moment February 3rd and it’s all going to have to get done in one day.
Add to all that the stress, Dash started his new position as Mobile Manager for the Security firm he works for the week before Christmas and has been working between 8 and 16 hour days, he’s dog ass tired when he comes home and he has a lot of reorganizing before things run smoothly.
Neither of us is in any kind of intimate mood and when I get tense sometimes sex is the best release if things don’t line out soon we’ll both explode.
I haven’t been out of this damnable basement apartment to do anything but pay bills, do laundry and grocery shopping because it’s all we can afford. I’m addicted to my computer but lately it’s been boring me I want to eat out once in a while, rent movies once a week, do something beside sit here, sleep, watch TV, cook and clean.
And I most definitely want to spend time with my man. Talking to a 9 year old day in and day out gets very boring. Don’t get me wrong I love her but I sometimes require grown up conversations as opposed to what kind of cartoons are my favorite. Mind you his double sized pay check is going to help with the bill issue but when do we have time to enjoy what we work for?
Sorry I just had to unload, nothing much else is going on around here and I can’t finish the Love Case Studies because love is not what I feel right now. I’m so frustrated
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