Honey Bear

Back in June Dash took Ladybug and I to the Marineland in Niagra Falls (Canada side). First we took in the whale show, then the Dolphin show, where Bug got to high-5 a dolphin.

Onto feed the animals first - the fish (the food was given to us in an ice cream cone ~ and I was thinking creative way to cut down on the garbage ratio), then we feed the bears (this too was dispensed in an ice cream cone), the food itself reminded me of Pops cereal, it smelled like, looked like it , I was afraid to taste it. Later we were mobbed by deer for yet another ice cream cone of animal pellets.

Turns out I was absolutely correct. They give the Bears Pops cereal because it's honey coated. At night they feed them fish.

I remember at the end of the day having seen everything twice, being so tired from all the walking, feeding the park animals and us human animals as well, we finally got to the one big roller coaster. I love roller coasters. I rode it then collapsed near the exit to rest while Dash and Bug raced around and around riding that coaster until the park closed.

Sometimes I have 2 kids, other days I have 1 kid and an overgrown child. Dash raises his eyebrow at me with that half crooked smile of his and says 'only difference between me and kids...I have more debt'.

He cracks me up! That child like wonder and innocence I lost mine before I knew I had it. He still possesses his and I guess in a way since I can't recapture my youth being near him is close enough.

Lord, how I adore and admire him, I want to be so much like him. And being with him has caused me to change on some basic level, I'm softer now. No need for the armor because we protect each other.

Finally someone else I can count on!

I'm sitting here now in the dark eating Pops cereal and thinking about how much I miss my Honey bear whose beat like eggs. 12 hour shifts suck the life out of him. He's gotten so used to sleeping between 4 - 6 hours a night that if he tries for more his body just won't allow it and he wakes up in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep.

Thank God! They are finally pushing his site managers to find his replacement NOW so he can take the Management position he was hired for 3 weeks ago.

The first 3 months will be major overtime getting his guys in line and straightening out the mess he was left with since they just lost 2 people. It's security, one got booted for showing up to the job drunk, and the other for taking 3 hours to do a 45 minute job.

The sooner he starts, the sooner it will be when he can drop back to Mon. - Fri. and 8 hour days. Fuck I might actually be able to have a date with him every other weekend then. Even if it's just us sitting around the dinner table as a family at least that's something. Cross your fingers for us, wish us well and that they find his replacement tomorrow. I'm off to snuggle into bed next to my hibernating bear. Dream pretty pictures!