Lost

I had everything I ever wanted. The man of my dreams walked righted out of those lonely nights right into my arms. He loved me and I him. We were happy the envy of all who knew us.

And I let my own insecurities infiltrate my heart because I didn't believe I deserved him, didn't believe I could ever be good enough.

Now my whole world is a nightmare. I'm surrounded by the memories of what we once had, it rips me in two. He's still here, says he still loves me, still wants me but I can feel time slipping away with every pulse.

Nothing feels real. For brief moments it almost feels normal and then I am left with what I have wrought. I'm so lost. I don't know how to get that magic back. I can't fix it. I wish I could.